Honoring Endings: Navigating Completion, Trust, and Change

How do you know when the time has come for something to end? When something has come to completion?

For the past two and a half years, I have been working with the most incredible client. This client has given me the opportunity to do what I’m good at and passionate about while allowing me to experience an unprecedented abundance and ease in my life. For some time, I had this feeling that maybe our work together was complete. And sure enough, this week, she told me that we would probably finish out our work together in 2025 - we wouldn’t need a full year and as many hours.

I had known for at least a year that this was coming - that this would eventually happen. I’m not sure whether this premonition was rooted in fear and hyper vigilance and self-sabotage, or from an inner wisdom- a secure knowing.

Endings have often been challenging for me- particularly relationship endings. There is a part of me that wants to hold on to what is familiar and doesn’t want things to change. Sometimes, out of desperacy, I’ll find myself looking for project ideas that will allow me to keep working with this client. But I know it’s probably time.

I’m trying to practice acceptance and surrender and the belief that everything will be okay. I’m also trying to practice slowing down. In my desire for more certainty and to placate my anxiety, I can jump to find solutions and figure out what I should do to secure future work. Instead, I’m trying to sit with the discomfort of not knowing and TRUST. It’s hard! I’m scared.

How can I honor this completion and move forward from my authenticity. How do I manage the doubts and fears that ooze in and try to take over? The only answer I have right now is that however unpleasant it feels initially to just sit, it’s quite soothing to connect with my inner knowing.

I am safe. I will be okay. I will figure it out.